spinning in place

Do you ever feel like you are spinning in place? I sort of feel that way. It isn't necessarily a bad feeling, except that I don't feel as though I have any forward momentum. I suspect, like most spinning objects, that the spinning is moving me beyond a single point. I just can't tell which direction I am going or where I will end up. I don't really like it, but I try to just roll with it.

I am taking a big step soon. It has the potential to cause significant life changes, but it will likely only cause inward changes, which will also be good.

There is one big change, maybe a couple big changes, that I would be interested in making, but Husband isn't so interested in them. So I wait. and wonder. and spin.

I got a magnet in the mail from a friend one time. It read: God knows. That's all. And it is still on my fridge, and I rely on it's being true.

I just pray that God is in the spinning, somewhere.